Secrets can be hard to keep, don’t you think? They’re always there, at the back of your mind, ready to bubble up and over at the wrong moment.
If you can confess them to strangers, though, maybe that would help keep them at bay from the folks who matter, though – or at least, maybe that’s what these 17 people were probably thinking when they decided to tell all to the internet.
17. Fake it ’til you make it.
I have to tell myself that I am a lot happier than I actually am everyday.
16. Getting older.
I miss my old friend group.
I’m in my 30s, about 5 years ago we were still throwing huge parties until dawn. Now it’s hard to even find 2 persons to hang out with. Most people settled down, or feel too tired to go out…
15. Life without passion.
I’m disturbed by how difficult it is to feel passion or motivation about anything in my present life. I’ve gone through years of higher education, internships, freelance work, and portfolio work and revisions and I feel absolutely nothing for any of it, which disturbs me greatly, but I keep on the “everything’s great and I’d LOVE to lick your corporate boots” face on because it’s what is expected of me and anyone else looking for work.
This also extends to my “hobbies”, dramatic air quotes, because honestly? I don’t even love what I used to love or think I love anymore, and that also disturbs me an incredible amount.
TL;DR: I don’t remember the last time I felt any passion or motivation for anything in life, and that disturbs me a lot.
14. Procrastination station.
I should be job searching, because I need to leave my job soon due to life changes, but I can’t bring myself to care.
I just procrastinate with video games and meaningless tasks.
13. A secret code.
I only wear a tie and jacket when I’ve been feeling really upset and fed up with life. That way I have at least one thing to brighten my day.
I have been dressing up everyday for more than two weeks now…
12. Grief never goes away.
December 8th marks the half way point. After that day, I will have lived more days without my dad than with him. He passed away when I was 19, he had heart disease.
I miss him and it’s sad to think about living over half my life without him.
11. Too good at pretending.
How lost and hurt I really am. It’s easier to hide it all and pretend everything is getting better.
I’m grateful for what I have but most nights I cry myself to sleep because I’m always alone, stuck at a dead end job, exhausted from trying to improve every aspect of my life without results, and just tired of pretending.
At least it helps to know that I’m not the only one feeling lost right now.
10. You can’t go back.
Every day I hate the life I’m living a little bit more. I can retrace my steps and see all the choices that would have gotten me to where I wish I was too, but I feel so trapped now.
I feel so unwanted and out of place all the time.
9. At least you’re aware.
Im better at making people uncomfortable than making them laugh.
8. Just detached.
I feel like I’m incapable of love.
I like people, but genuinely never feel an attachment. Even with my girlfriend and immediate family, I love them, but it’s more a word than a feeling. Empty love or something I don’t know.
7. Dogs are great, but…
I feel really lonely.
I live alone with my dog but sometimes it would be nice to talk to another person or just have company instead of doing everything alone.
6. Trying hard.
I’ve tried so hard to not be my mom and not be like her that I started doing things she did, and lying to myself and everyone around me, just like she does.
One year of therapy down, and I’m trying really hard to put a stop to my bad patterns.
5. No more trust.
My wife cheated on me a few months back. She claims it was just one kiss and dirty texts but who really knows the extent of her infidelity besides him and her. I was beyond stupid and ignored all warning signs. I have told no one and it happened about 4 months ago.
We are buying a house and have 2 kids. I initially forgave her and we worked on things. However, she and her sister are going on a cruise in November and I don’t trust her at all. FML.
Edit: Thanks to everyone who responded. A lot of you were very helpful and I appreciate it.
I talked to my wife this morning and she was more concerned with our marriage than the cruise. She even went as far as saying she is going to call about canceling it today.
I know many people suggested divorce and I understand why you would suggest it. I don’t know if that’s where wile will end up but for now I’m going to keep trying. Sometimes things aren’t as black and white as they seem.
You all are awesome!
4. He wants to stop trying.
I’m have terminal cancer and am tired of the side effects of the treatments and the pain the cancer is causing.
I really want to just die and get it over with but my wife and two daughters would be devastated if I stopped fighting.
3. Compassion fatigue.
Compassion fatigue is slowly killing me. I’m so tired.
I love my friends and family deeply, but I need a break from being the shoulder to cry on for awhile.
I’ve been in therapy (my thing to confess I guess) for 9 and a half months after I had a full mental/emotional breakdown from dealing with everyones problems for so long but NO ONE was ever there for me when I needed them. I snapped and couldn’t take it anymore.
It’s fine to love your family and friends and try to be there when they need you, but put your own mental health and just overall health first. I wish I had of done that long ago.
2. A noble choice.
I don’t think I want kids because I’m too much like my father. I can end the bloodline with me.
1. A different life.
I’ve been passively suicidal For 7+ years now and most days I wish I had a completely different life, because I don’t want to live mine anymore.
I just feel like I’m suppose to have died 7 years ago. I tear up a lot when I’m thinking about it too long. I love a lot of my life. But I can’t imagine wanting to live it.
Y’all, I don’t know if I would be able to keep these secrets, to be honest, would you?
If you’re keeping a secret from everyone in your life and would like to confess, our comment section is open!