What’s your deepest, darkest secret?

Have you told anyone?

Is the burden wearing you down?

Maybe you need to visit the confessions page on Reddit and release yourself.

I combed through there, and pulled 19 that stuck out.

I’m not usually one to tease the ending, but I did save a crazy-ass one for last:

1. Bad Dad

I don’t want to be a father anymore.

24M divorced with 4.5yo son.

Almost 6 years with the ex. Lots of fighting and a generally shitty relationship. Went on for too long, trying to “stay together for the kid”. We broke up last October and continued to live together until March this year when I called the cops and evicted her.

Now that I’m single (and a dad), I just want to sign away my parental rights. I resent my ex for still being able to get laid and find a new LTR while I’ve had less-than-stellar results (one crazy who I dated for a couple months that ended up wedging herself between me and my son/my ex/my family). I want to selfishly just say “fuck it”, let her take over as sole provider of my son and be able to do the things I want to do (ie. meet women my age without being red-flagged immediately on account of my single parenthood).

I’m struggling with alcoholism, guilt of kicking out my ex, debt we incurred together, the apartment we got together that I still live in but can no longer afford, and unable to meet someone new (whom I know I will be infinitely happier with than my ex but who I can’t since I feel like I’m forever marked as undatable).

I’m reminded by my friends and family that I have my son ‘there for me’ and I’m lucky since I have a good job/career prospects…But it doesn’t help me sleep at night, since I constantly obsess about being alone and single. Maybe I’m just a selfish prick. Maybe my son would be better off without me.

2. Poof!

I just lost 60% of my family’s money. I’m in shock. It was on a stock called ziopharm (ziop). Didn’t expect them to release results so early, planned on selling out before they did. It wasn’t greed about holding through results I just didn’t think they would release so early. This is money I can afford to lose but it hurts. My wife knows about my trading but what do I tell her? Tell myself?

3. Dreams

So, there is this girl at my school, and she’s super gorgeous, but I recently found out that she has a bf, and ever since then, I’ve been having dreams (not nightmares) where I murder the dude.

I’m worried about this, because when I wake up I feel no remorse.

4. Get a Room

I’ve always had a fantasy of getting a hotel room and inviting strange men over.

I want it so badly.

5. Just Cuz

I had sex with my cousin last night. There has been some somewhat obvious chemistry of the years. We’re in our late 20’s and both single, both a little bit emotionally screwed up.

I don’t know about other places, but here in the US, this is mostly frowned upon, I would guess.We rarely see each other, maybe 2x a year, and since early childhood, I spent about 10 years not seeing her at all.

Last night over some drinks, one thing led to another…Now, in the cold, grey light of day, I’m not sure how I feel about the whole thing. It was incredibly hot and very passionate. It may happen again sometime, because it was good in the moment.

6. “I’ve never been attracted to her before.”

Let me get this out of the way right now, I am in no way attracted to my girlfriends mother. I mean yeah she has pretty face and a nice shape but thinking about her in that capacity is kinda icky.

I’ve never been attracted to her before, in fact this is the only time I’ve had something like this happen. It wasn’t anything hardcore just some heavy groping and kissing. Anyway I’m rambling and I’m just weirded out about this and just had to tell an impartial party.

7. A Pirate’s Life

I haven’t been able to find a job, I’m so scared of disappointing my dad that I told him I found a part time job in data entry when really I’ve been making my money off of selling premium accounts on file sharing websites to download pirated pornography and writing erotica for the amazon store.

I make about a 1000 a month but it’s very dangerous and could be shut down any day now

I wake up at 7:30, shower, put on khakis and a nice shirt and shoes and go somewhere they won’t find me and just write or browse or game all day, then go home.

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8. Sink-hole

I pee in my bathroom sink. But I’m clean about it, and I never pee in the sinks of others.

When I do it, I run my hand under the water so the water spreads all over the inside of the bowl, and use my other hand to aim into the drain itself. When I’m done, I make sure water runs long enough to wash it all out of the pipes. Then I use some water to rinse off my goods.

It all started a few years ago when I was running to the bathroom and didn’t make it and went for the kitchen sink. It was the best piss I ever had. Being able to pee into something that was waist level, as well as not really needing to aim, being able to push myself into the side of the sink in relief, and even using a splash of water to wash off my cash and prizes was a religious experience.